My children are 8 and 3. They have noticed an obvious change in their dad. What happened to the early to rise, grab life and work hard dad? Now he lies in bed, unable to even get up and kiss them goodbye to school? They see my impatience and lack of tolerance, my tears and sadness. They see the doctors coming on a daily basis and see box after box of pills being supplied.

The shame and sadness I carry for not even having the energy and enthusiasm to go out for walks, play games or go to swimming lessons that I have taken them to 4 or 5 times a week. Thankfully children are very resilient and can bounce back. That’s not to say that i’m dreadfully worried that this will make an impression upon their lives.

Well it’s another reason why I have to overcome this monstrous illness - slowly but surely I will beat it - and one day it will be bolted away in a place where it can never get out again…....well that’s the plan anyway!

Any one have anything to add about the effects and how to play it with children, please comment.

Steve

Make it a goal to do one thing with them this week.  Take the step and see how much they enjoy being with you.  Lethargy and tears are my worst side effects but my mum was right when she said that if I don’t make an effort it wins. It becomes too easy to sit about and do nothing.  There isn’t anything scary about going swimming.  They know their dad’s not well and it will mean a lot to do something - even going for a mcdonalds or something.
Give it a go.  You never know….
Snoopy xxx

Having a really bad one Snoop I didn’t know it could come back so nasty and grab you I only had a little sleep - it’s really got me I just took a tablet to calm down - oh it’s real isn’t it my job my my home im not good that’s why i’m here it’s just not fair - I will beat this and I will take Lewis swimming I have to try and make effort I know I can this will pass it’s just got me now it will go wont it just need to calm do nt I it will go soon

It will, and you will feel better.
Focus on how good you’ll feel doing one small thing and cling on to that. 
I know how you feel today and I’ve not had the best week ever but I have had worse and come through it so I’ll be fine.
I’m going to try and make my karate class tomorrow and think how I’ll feel after doing that.
Snoopy x