I had an alright day today. It was a pretty desperate start and getting out of my bed was even tougher than usual as I had a pounding head ache.

I pushed myself to wash the cars even though it was cold and I actually felt a bit better afterwards.

We then ventured out for a family lunch which was actually quite nice and the kids enjoyed themselves. I think they saw a bit of their old dad back. I’m shattered now so I’m going to have an early night - who knows what tomorrow will bring?

Sleep well everyone

Steve

Congratulations on your beautiful day - it is nice to be knackered for the right reasons!!!

It has been a long time since we chatted, bloody AOL.  Also been a little busy with planning my life or should I say changing it.

This year is going to mean change for a lot of people.  Apparently the stars/astrology says this is supposed to be a lucky year for all!!

You washed the car, gosh that is motivation, I couldnt do mine on a sunny day, let alone zero below.

You sound so much more positive than when I last spoke to you, so things must be changing.  if you look back to when you first typed on here and look at yoursel now, surely you can see a turn around in such a short time.  So your light at the end of the tunnel is closer than you think.  It is about changing your mindset and perception, not your job or your environment.

Its amazing how people can pinpoint when bad things happen but not good, so that tells me that good happens all the time, we just dont notice till something tips the apple cart.  I am not saying life is easy, but it is hard to appreciate what we take for granted until it is taken away.

If work is shit, that is hard as it takes up alot of our precious time, so either try to change your perception of it, or makes sure other parts of your life have quality to make up for this until you can change this too.

I worked in Accounts for 20 years and I hated my job, but I didnt have 20 years of shit, because I loved my life outside my job.  Ok, so it took me 20 years to change my career and I am still in the process. but knowing I am in the process makes it easier, and by the time I qualify, I will have 10 years left to retirement, but if I enjoy it, who says I am going to retire.  Change is hard for anyone and generally takes time and effort, but so does getting out of bed in the morning and we make it most of the time!!

How was Christmas for you and the family?  I love Christmas and had a great time, I live for moments like this.  Christmas has come and gone in 2 weeks, but that 2 weeks is the most exciting time and over the 20 years I had 40 fabulous weeks.  My birthday goes on for a week, therefore another 20 weeks of fabulous birthdays over the last 20 years.  I had every weekend off (52 weekends over 20 years - you do the maths) and 5 weeks holiday off a year over 20 years - do you get my drift as my maths is failing. 

I hope you enjoy the group therapy as I think it is a good idea, any therapy is good - apart from Chemotherapy - I would not recommend that one.  Take care.  Will talk soon

Love Greenlady