Hi Kayfer,

It is so lovely to hear from you.

I have been following your journey, and am glad that you are getting better.

Just wanna send a quick hello to you (will talk to you more later) as I am heading out.

Thank you, beautiful and you are an amazing person!!!

Please be kind to yourself today(I’ll remember to do the same)

Thinking of you

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Kayfer and Hope. I can hear the gloria gaynor music in the background I will survive hey hey . You are amazing. Do you think we could make I am enough tune together ok here goes ’ I am enough , I am enough , even though life gets rough,  I get out of bed , wash the fears from my negative head, i am enough hey hey . What do you reckon a few backing vocals there and we could sing to the bathroom mirror song together!!! boxing class just a little bit of ericksonian therapy there, it’s excellent, punch out the agression. Your guys are WONDERFUL and amazing XXX and i love to hear from you. The babe girl got out of the wrong side of the bed this morning instead of fairy dust being sprinkled last night i think it was devil dust. Then she said mummy you can still see the moon, perhaps that explained it !!!! (going luney) She was ok by the time she got to school so all was well and the weather is a gorgeous september morn here. I love it XXX ummmm big sniffs of gorgeous fresh air Xx good luck with your packing Hope and I am off shopping too XXXhugs Xx

Hey Chole,

I would like to let you know that I checked out Mike Dooley - The Secret and Byron Katie - The Work just before. 

The Secret - ummmmm, I didn’t get it after watching the DVD.  Everyone from the DVD seemed so excited, but I just didn’t get it :-0

As for the Work, I like that   I watched a few sessions re Money & Future & Pressure, and it makes sense to me!!!  It is about right here and right now   Happiness is our birth right.  Is it true about what I believe in?  Right here and right now, I am happy to let you know that I have had a good day.  I am enough.  I am kind to myself.

I hope your babe girl is OK.  She sounds so cute

My beautiful boyfriend took a day off today.  We arranged our removalist today; we dropped an ad at the hospital nearby for any interests in taking over our lease.  Our real estate rang earlier, and she will bring some people to see the apartment tomorrow.  We also cleaned our place today.  It feels good that things are moving along, and we achieved a lot today without feeling stressed.

I CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY, BECAUSE IT IS MY BIRTH RIGHT.

RIGHT HERE & RIGHT NOW, I AM ENOUGH.

Love you lots, and hope you had FUN shopping today

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Have you logged on to receive inspirational meesages from TUT. I receive one a day and I love them. They are constant reminders that what I might be thinking the self destructive thinking is wrong. Well they do that for me, I love them. Just a suggestion. I reckon the secret works we just need to give it time. I believe if I say I am better I am better if I say I am going to get better I always push it into the future. The sad thing is I find I have to keep it to myself and act as if I am better because if I say I am better when I am ill they’ll think I am crazy. If i say I am ill nobody listens, If I say I am ok , people judge me . do you get my drift ? I say you can have whatever you want in this life as long as you don’t want it and that rule definitely applies to men. I guess it’s not feeling too needy, and acting cool. However with the secret I must act like I already have whatever the car etc. Hey it worked with me I just recently got a new car. I didn’t want an expensive car because i couldn’t afford the fuel to go in it. Plus I don’t like to be noticed !!! Plus I have found people around me get envious and evil so I like to look normal and fit in. I guess wealth can open up other peoples pandoras box and jealousy is the worst of all evils. You have done soooo much and done so well. YOU are AMAZING XXx you sound like you are having lots of social support too from your boyfriend. Nice new fresh start. I hope you have children one day. My daughter was better today I asked my husband to help me get her ready for school and he cracked jokes and made her laugh. I watched them and realised perhaps I was too needy hurrying her up pushing and watched his relaxed homer simpson attitude and it worked. I guess I am a fuss bucket worry we will be late worry wart. I manifest the problem. I swear ha ha what am I like. I bought some new fluffy slippers. Luckily did not go mad and buy up the shops. Because I am a shopper holic, there are a few things that need to go back because they don’t fit my daughter and so I won’t be being a bulimic shopper (taking stuff back)because it wasn’t because I went shopping crazy mad which I have done in the past. I feel getting out more and doing more exercise and eating better is keeping me out of the shops and definitely saying I am enough. I only buy enough of what i need too. I noticed my spending has gone down alot more. I am also getting used to the idea I don’t need to buy my friends anymore. I used to buy them expensive presents. Also I noticed my rubbish bin is not as full as it used to be. I also noticed the I am enough takes time to sink in I must tell Kayfer. I had programmed myself so long to be the opposite it takes time to make all the changes I have. I love you too XXXX HUGS XXX you brave wonderful beautiful woman XXXX may all your wishes come true I won’t say dreams because some dreams are bad Xx Mike Dooley says Thoughts become things Xx Hope all your thoughts are as beautiful as you Xx

I receive this story in my emails today, I copied and paste it Xx I thought you might like it Xx
Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room.
One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs.
His bed was next to the room’s only window.
The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.
The men talked for hours on end.
They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation
Every afternoon, when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.
The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside
The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake.
Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.
As the man by the window described all this in exquisite details, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine this picturesque scene.
One warm afternoon, the man by the window described a parade passing by.
Although the other man could not hear the band - he could see it in his mind’s eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.
Days, weeks and months passed.
One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep.
She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.
As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.
Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside.
He strained to slowly turn to look out the window besides the bed.
It faced a blank wall.
The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window.
The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall.
She said, ‘Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you
Epilogue:
There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations.
Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared, is doubled.
If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can’t buy.
‘Today is a gift, that is why it is called   The Present.’
The origin of this letter is unknown
I thought this would make you smile Xx Hugs

Hi Chloe,

Thank you for the beautiful story - I enjoyed it

So many times, I forget about the present.  Often I live either in the past and future :-0 I beat myself up about the past, and worry about the future…

It is Sunday night, and I just wanna check in & say hello…

This weekend,I got to see my family and spent time in the sun - it was really nice.  There were times that I was feeling down or having the negative thoughts came up, I kept reminding myself that right now is OK.  I am with good people, and I am safe. 

Well, I am back at home now, and am glad that I had a relaxing weekend.  I hope you had a nice weekend, too.

Time for bed now, thank you for thinking of me, Chloe

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Hi Hope
Im glad to see your ok and had a good weekend with your family, im on abit of a downer today with myself but Im going to read more of my book Marissa Peer and see if she can sort me out

Have you any plans for the coming week?

Hi Kayfer,

It is good to hear from you   Sorry to hear that you feel a bit down today… wish I were closer to give you a big hug.  Here: I am sending you lots of positive thoughts and big hug over the internet.  Can you feel it?

I’ve heard about you and Kayfer talking about Marisa’s book, and it seems to be very interesting.  Which book is it?  Is it “Ultimate Self Confidence”? Where did you get it from?  I’m thinking of getting a copy as well.

On Helen’s website, there are some helpful audio abstract from Marisa.  I listened to one session this morning, and it helped me to open the doors and let some sunshine in.  Marisa has a soothing voice, and it also made me feel calm.  Have you listened to her CD etc?  I found it helpful especially when I need some reassurance from someone telling me:I AM ENOUGH & I WILL GET BETTER.

This week, I plan to organise the removalist for our move next week, finalise our trip for next month, packing, hope to do some exercise like YOGA and Boxing this week, sit in the sun sometimes, and maybe make a CAKE for having met amazing people like you, Chloe and Helen

My boyfriend just called, and the agent has found new tenants for the apartment.  However, we will still need to pay for the lease breaking fee :-0 Tried to get that waived, but she didn’t agree to this.  O well, at least we tried, right?

What about you, Kayfer…do you have anything planned for this week?

You are a beautiful person with a lovely family.  Thank you for thinking of me, and I hope you are feeling a bit better when you read my email.

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Have you listened to Erkhart tolle I find him hard work to understand however he talks about living in the present. Then have you heard about Kaizen created by a POW in a japanese prison camp how you should take life slowly and before you know it you are on your way and you have reached your destination. When i was a boss in an office full of girls I used to get hold of the paperwork in their in trays and half them so they only saw a small pile then they would rush up to me with a big smile and say I’ve finished. Then there were these two women who hated eachother I thought ummm we need some empathy here so I asked the boss if i could swop them. Yes you guessed it appologys all round and they became the best of friends. See when you get to where you think you should be you might not like it or feel any different. Then i thought well if i live in the present how would i progress how would i dream evolve move on. I guess if we live in the present and shift a little the kaizen way (Helen’s baby steps) we might just get there. OR I thought like the movie the secret if !!! we live in the present how we would like to be in the future i.e act it out as if it was !!! then we are in our destination living in the present. Then also by living in the present we are proving we are enough because we are enough because we are living in the present and we are enough to do so accepting and embracing what is whom i am. I am enough and i am happier enough about it. Umm I look at myself and say I am enough for my husband I am enough for my friends I am enough for my daughter why aren’t I enough for me ? I should be enough for me why do all these other people consider me enough yet I don’t ????? Why do I look to improve myself because if i stop I’ll become obese a slob a nobody if i stop putting in the effort. I am frightened to stop worrying about worrying because then i might slip into a place whereby i won’t be enough for my friends and enough for my family. So then i worry and enough is not enough I need to pull myself up improve. I guess the trick is to stay as is, to worry about it tomorrow (dale carnegie) Fear F false E experience A acting R reality. Because most of my horrid negative fearful thoughts are false a load of cobble dee goop. I onced fear an arguement with this horrid woman who bullied me and used me to look after her boy. I tippy toed around her and lived in fear I would upset her. Until there came a day she argued with me she wanted me to do something I couldn’t give and she got really mad. I was living in the moment and I survived she didn’t stab me or strangle me we just had a horrid arguement and I SURVIVED. There was so much peace and tranquility after I got her out of my life it was wonderful. I haven’t seen her since. One of my other friends still has to tolerate being bullied by her, I don’t. The pay off the bonus the reward is wonderful. I am sorry to hear you have to pay the lease, really sorry to hear about that. Yet there’ll be a pay off a peace a tranquilty it’s only money. It’s only money, hey I would pay a fortune to get out of a sad bubble in life. In the film the shawshank redemption he had to swim through excrement to be freed. Your buying your way out and you are taking baby steps to improve your future. Marissa’s book is on Amazon. It’s wonderful and Kayfer and I are working through it together if you want to join in. I must ask elaine if she would like to join us girls too. We have our own little book club ha ha Xx

Chloe,

I’m sooooooooooo happy to receive your email tonight   It has been a really hard day to get through…No matter what I do or try, the negative thoughts just won’t go away!!!  It feels like that something is going to go wrong, and I just can’t stop thinking about it.  The move, the travel… it feels that I am going to fail again, and I am scared for things to go wrong, because I just can’t face any stuff!!!  I can’t keep a job, I can’t do anything right…

Lately I feel that I am slowly getting out of the hole, but right now, I am just in my dark hole, this very very dark hole and hate being in it.  I don’t want to fall apart again!!!  It feels that I pretend to be strong, but deep down inside it is all a big mess!!! 

Present right now is so hard, and I just can’t shake the negative off!!! I am angry with myself for being like this…  I am trying to read, listen to music, cook dinner for my partner, but nothing seems to be working.  My head is about to explode :-0

Depression has taken my confidence away.  Ever since I was diagnosed with Depression, I have not been the same.  I miss ME…I really miss myself!!!  I am kind to my friends and family, but I just don’t know how to treat myself well. 

I’d love to be in the book club with you guys.  How do I get a copy of Marisa’s book?

I’m sorry to blah blah blah, but I feel so close to you guys!!!

You are the light and hope in my life at the moment

Thank you for listening, Chloe - you are a wonderful person.

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I am listening to erkart tolle and he is backing up Marissa with the enough theory and not wanting more. He explains it really well just like Marissa, He comes across as a college professor whereas marissa is an easy read for me. Oh no, horrid to hear your having a bad day. I had a bad day the other day then i watched my little 5 year go and brave school. she is only widdy and she was petrified. At the end of the day she was a bubbly little thing she rose to the challenge. It’s like if I don’t have the hard ship I don’t appreciate the gain. If lifes too easy for me I disrespect it take it for granted want more. I get like the elizabethian queen who caren’t be entertained by the court gesture. Have you seen the one in Black Adder then sir walter raleigh appears with tabacco ! potatoes anything to impress the queen. Now we have crisps chips and lung cancer ha ha. I have to ride the wave feel the fear and do it anyway because I won’t get any sense of achievement. The knocks chisel out the me. The stonemason of life taking all the chunks out of the marble to creat the me. All those great big blows of the hammer created a better statue. There was this excellent card company with all these inspirational words and it had something on the back like walk to the edge of the cliff, jump and learn to fly. It’s like parachuting my friends who have done it said the horrid bit is jumping out of the plane then it’s wonderful. Marissa’s book is great and an easy read can’t put it down type of book. Umm you can get it from Amazon book sellers. I think you can Type in amazon in your google. I saw copies in ottakars book shop WH smith. Ebay might have a copy. I buy all my stuff from Amazon. Life is out there (fat face logo) Just do it (Nike Logo) Feel the fear and do it anyway ( susan jeffers) then you’ll gain ultimate confidence, promise.No pain no gain, just the way we got created. I don’t believe anybody is entirely confident. I really believe the tips Marissa has in her book help overcome the jitters and when I use them they change my perception and encourage me to give something a go. My dad used to say what one fool can do so can another. It’s not about sifting the good from the bad it’s about just getting on with what needs to get done, feel the fear and do it anyway. You are what you think !!! Giving birth it might be bliming painful however no pain no gain gorgeous new life appears before me. Thinking about the future you are making yourself worry and thinking about the past. Erkhart and Marissa are saying live in the now think of the now this moment this precious precious moment the now and in this now it is enough, it is enough for you to talk to me you are enough to talk to me and I am enough to talk to you. We are all enough to be eachother. I am enough for you, you are enough for me. We are evolving now in the present creating a new culture within a depression forum, we are creating the culture of helping eachother and you are enough to be part of it and enough to love and hug and be listened to. I LOVE YOU Xxx you are warm kind loving giving and more than enough to be my friend. Hey your soooooooooo STRONG what changes you are making to change your life. Your getting sick of being sick and you are going to make it through Xx

Hi Hope

Thank you for your lovely kind words, its really kind of you to think of me. Im sorry to hear your in a dark hole, I know just how you feel there as Im still feeling like that - I just feel so horribly empty but I dont understand why when I have a loving family, I wish I knew what else to be doing to rid myself of this heavy feeling im having, I feel so flat its untrue. Im taking my anti d’s, going for walks in the sunshine, getting to bed early, eating relatively well, doing Wii now and then, I have my counselling tomorrow, my hubby is being so lovely to me, my son is being good, I have time off work, Im going to Yoga tomorrow night - so theres lots of positives going on, oh and we could be getting our extension done in two weeks, Im even going on a personal development course this saturday, its just a 2 hr thing and its free the first time, so thought why not give it a go, ive never been on one before.

I just cant help thinking im barking up the wrong tree somehow, I dont know what to do with myself, we’ve had our conifers chopped down this morning and theres lots more light in the house which is good, never realised how much they blocked the sun out, so I am glad thats now done.

The one thing getting me down is my appearance right now, my hair looks a right mess, my legs look like they belong to a 70 year old, varicose veins, my clothes look dreary and drab, I just look a bag of s….....e. Lately I just cant have the motivation to make myself look nice, although I will tomorrow for my counselling, but if im not going anywhere in particular I just dont bother, I really have let myself go. I could look so much better if I tried, I want to get my hair done but cant seem to pluck up courage to ring hairdressers, Id like it coloured but it costs too much at my usual place, my hair looks so lifeless and dull.

Id love to have a makeover and a professional photographer take a picture of me so I can put it on my wall and feel proud to be me, sounds so shallow doesnt it but ive always secretly fancied doing that, my aunt had a portrait done of her and it was lovely, also a friend had one done and its beautiful, I want one, wonder if I should do it, I would also love to go on a health farm for the weekend (preferably with someone) not sure who would go with me though ....... arrrrrhhhhh I need a close friend, someone I can be myself with and not give a fig about what they think of me. perhaps i’ll go on my own.

I need something to look forward to, something I know im capable of enjoying.

sorry ive gone on, Im feeling I should be reading the rest of my book, think there’s an exercise waiting for me.

Bye for now my good friends, hope you all have a good day.

Hi Chloe,

I love reading your messages.  They make me smile, and remind myself not to give it all up yet!!!

I think that I still question a lot about why I have depression.  I like to get to the bottom of things, so what could I have done to be free from Depression?  Or what did I do wrong this time that I fell into Depression again?  My doctor said that there is nothing wrong that I did this time, it was just too much stuff happening in my life, hence Depression again.  I felt good when she told me that, but every now and then, I feel so guilty&shamed;for having Depression. (Sorry I don’t know why???)

Depression took me by surprise a few years ago, and I didn’t even know what was happening to me till I was taken to different doctors, trying various medication etc.  It is like something out of the blue, and I have no control of whatsoever.  It scares me the fact that how dependent I become on other people when I have depression.  It’s like I lost all my abilities to live.  I don’t like being a burden, and I have been told that I am not, but it feels that I don’t have much identity when I am depressed.  I can’t handle noise, I can’t handle people, I don’t like any conflict, I become so sensitive, I don’t enjoy anything anymore…  Once upon a time, I was adventurous and was not afraid to try new things,but now I am completely the opposite :-0

I know that I have so many things to look forward to.  My dad rings me frequently to see how I am; My mum and I have got closer due to my depression, and I feel that I can talk to her about stuff nowadays and she won’t be upset with me anymore;  I have a beautiful partner who encourage me to be me and be proud of me;  I have a good job, but due to depression, I am taking time off from my job(it became just all too much for me), so I can get well and do whatever I wanna do.

However, I feel so LOST!!!  Now I have the whole day to do whatever I am free to do, but I feel like that I am wasting my life away.  I don’t even feel confident to ever go back to my job or any job :-0 I don’t want Depression to scare me from living, but it is the big NO NO NO at the moment.  How do I concur that???  Once upon a time, I thought I could save the world and help people in need, now I feel useless and restricted for what I can do!!!

I watched Roger playing at the US final today.  It was a tough game, and he lost.  I wonder how these tough players get through each lost when they tried the best they can to win the game…

Chloe, I think I am ready to read Marisa’s book.  I need someone to guide me through this journey.  I will check amazon or the book store to get it.  Yes, I am scared of fxxx it up again¬knowing what’s next, but your warm words have encouraged me to get up and give it try again. 

Well, I made a cake last week, but forgot to put flour in it   I FELT SO BAD AND USELESS FOR IT :-0 Maybe I can try to make a cake again with flour in it?  Only if I could look at life that way :-0

This may sound strange, but I feel like that I have known you for so long and I can just share my story with you freely.  Hope you don’t mind me of blah blah blah for so long.

I LOVE YOU, CHLOE - YOU ARE AMAZING!!!
and
THANK YOU, CHLOE FOR BEING SUCH A WONDERFUL FRIEND WHO DOESN’T GIVE UP ON ME

Hope you and your family have a beautiful day - it makes me happy when I know other people are well!!!

Hi Kayfer,

Thank you for your message.  I am so glad that you are going to try all sorts of things like yoga, personal development course etc.  Good on you for getting yourself out there.  In Marisa’s CD, it says that you gonna push yourself sometimes to do things even though you don’t want to.  I find it hard to do that at the moment, but it makes me happy that you are doing it.  Well done!!!

I can relate to what you said in your email, we both have a lot going on for us, but why do we still so low & not motivated???  For me, I am so scared to hit the bottom again, and I think that’s what’s holding me back from moving forward???  Also what’s next for me???

I don’t really know the answers, but I try to put the pieces together and hopefully we can work it through and encourage each other and discover something(AHA MOMENT) along the way?

For me, I grew up in a quite conservative family with rules and restrictions.  Ever since I was a little kid, I knew I had to obey them in order not to get into troubles :-0 However, as I grew older, I became rebellious and often like to challenge things and seek justice (Yes, I can be quite stubborn)!  Before Depression, I might be too confident and felt I could do anything if I set my mind to it.  Now I am scared for not having any confidence at all :-0 Somewhere along the way, I hope to discover balance!

Hey, I like the idea that you are thinking of getting photos done and put them up in the house.  IT IS AN EXCELLENT IDEA!!!  I used to do some acting work for TV commercial, movies and in-house training programs etc, so I have had those photos done.  They are a lot of fun   You are doing it for you, and I think it is a positive step towards loving yourself and be kind to you.  Same goes for the haircut, but do it when you are READY.  You are worth it, Kayfer.

The health farm is a good idea, too.  A friend of mine goes each year, and she loves it as she doesn’t have to think or worry about anything else but herself.  Also it gives her some quite time from the hectic world that we all live in, you know, no mobile, no work but world of tranquility.  Personally I have never been, coz they are quite expensive.  I won’t might of try that one day when I have some $$$   A few days away is good for the soul, I think!

I enjoy talking to you,  Kayfer, and thank you for listening.

Hope to hear from you again, my dear friend!

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Hi Hope
Thank you so much for your lovely long reply, you are lovely for sending that and thanks for saying you enjoy chatting to me, it felt nice to be told that.

You know alot of what you said to Chloe rings true with me, I planted some seeds the other day and put the whole packet in instead of just a few, so I too felt useless and bad but personally i blame the depression for that, and even if its not its no big deal really, but I know what you mean, I cant help beating myself up for little things ive missed.

I also feel lost and have done for as long as I can remember even when not depressed I feel it deep down, I feel I dont really belong anywhere - no connection (Marissa talks about that) and its essential we as humans feel connection and having ultimate confidence can solve that according to the book, thing is depression can affect how connected we feel as we just want to shut ourselves away.

I do hope you get hold of Marisa’s book, my hubby got mine off Ebay, the shop on Ebay is called Omni Books its a brand new copy and it didnt cost much.  I have now finished reading it although Ive a couple of exercises to complete then I will start listening to the cd every day for 21 days without a break, wow - somethings got to happen after that.

Its good that you know you have things to look forward to, thats what always kept me going when being depressed in the past, Ive always managed to hold onto hope.

It does say in the book, (easier said than done) that to cure yourself you must do the opposite of depressed behaviour, there is a section on depression (about 26 pages), and she’s included case studies, its really useful and explains how best to look after yourself, ie. Vitamin B6 increases serotonin, a lack of vitamin B3 can cause depression, it says about eating oily fish 2 -3 times a week. You many already know all this but thought Id let you know just in case you didnt. Im going to buy some Omega 3 supplements today, infact I took them when pregnant and didnt suffer any low mood at all during the whole 9 mths, so I am thinking there could be some truth in this. I do eat fish once a week, need to eat more though.

This depression really does affect our confidence doesnt it, I mean I didnt have much to start with, infact thats why i get depressed because of low self esteem, but im now doing something about it, i have tried in the past but always gave up when my depression disappeared and thought oh im ok now. I could kick myself for not doing it but I really believe in Marisa’s book, its certainly the best book ive ever read, and ive read a few, its easy to read and enjoyable at the same time, Marisa is a god send. I really cant wait for you to get hold of it and we can help each other, I may do the exercises again and again for it to work but whatever it takes has to be worth it.

Hope I think everyone feels guilty and ashamed with depression - I know I do but its not our fault, its noones fault really, unfortunately some of us attach different meanings to situations, like at school for instance if you dont get picked for the team and have low self esteem anyway your going to feel unwanted and unpopular whereas another person with high self esteem would just think Im not very good at rounders but I have lots of friends and im good at maths. Well I used to get that alot at school not been picked and think thats probably affected me more than I realise and not just my mum leaving us all.

Hope I really am sending you warm wishes and hugs your way, as you are enough and deserve to be free of this depression, we will get through it.